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Friday, May 27, 2005
hello hello been ages since i blog, and im just gonna briefly summarise my life. main thing on mind now is june camp tml, which germany ppl not going, lotsa ppl not going, olvl, overseas and whatever from all de stds. doesnt sound very good. and this few days i really feel very bad. even though i might not mind, but to ppl in my team with NO female house leader.. it will be affecting them alot. if things don go well for my hse then wun june camp be ruin. im not tryin to act nice but i really feel bad. what can i do though. i hope going on sunday can make up for it. i hope june camp wun be sian for my squadmates, cos we cant all be together for a last camp. n i hope some ppl can thoroughly enjoy de camp cos its MUST go.. then no point dreading it. haha. jx me mich hs evadne val jeremy not going. wha.. damn gay. aiya. i really wish to go for my last june camp. which brings me to my next topic. GERMANY. at this moment, if can bring back time, i will just NOT GO. my results sucks. and i made my parents pay money for this trip. do i deserve the good treatment. ms ling is quite sucky. i don want her to be in charge of my group. i don want the rules. i want JUNE CAMP. i don want to be independant for 10 days. i don think i can make it. i have no 1 to take care of me, and im gonna die there badly laaaaaaaaa. thats how i feel now. but obv, dreading it wun help cos i paid 2000 bucks for it. hope i will enjoy it with CHAM :) comp train today. ant killing day, dey mate with heads. sir huawei was acting like little boy from dhs. den slouch shoulders.. study study. yah. typical lame. results sucks. yes. sqdmates can all get gd marks. and then here in 4a im flunking. after analysis its really the class im in dat bring me wayward for the past yrs. where is the momentum man. yah my fault too, but its de lacking atmosphere too lah. crap. its really a big regret to me. everything is fine now. i must learn to control temper. so must you man. we'l gonna last thru it all <33* |